Honesty

Well, my blog isn't even a week old yet. I have yet to review a single book. The whole point of starting a blog was for me to review books and do giveaways and BECOME THE BEST BLOGGER OF ALL TIME. Just kidding.

Honestly, I don't know what I was thinking when I started this. My first thought was "Oh cool I can sign up for ARCs!" Then I realized how awful that reason was. Truthfully, I could care less about getting books before other people. I have gone this long without getting ARCs so it really doesn't matter at this point. I used to be a little jealous of people reading books before the public could get their hands on them but then I was basically like, whatever. I am still going to read the book anyways! 

Then this thing happened. Everyone around me started writing books. Again, part of me got jealous because they were doing something so cool and I wasn't. I felt like they were in this cool little club that I wasn't apart of. 

Something I have struggled with my whole life is not fitting in. It's been ingrained in me that I was different. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't pretty enough. I wasn't smart enough. Nothing about me was OK. 

Being left out sucks.

For years, I had no friends. None. Zilch. The worst part was I was a little kid. When I got older, I finally found a group of people that embraced me for who I was. I went through a rebellious phase and blindly followed what all the cool kids were doing. Except I did all those things with my motley crew of friends. We had our highs, we had our lows, but we had each other. And I have never let them go. 

So what does any of this have to do with blogging??

I decided that I was going to try something different. I was going to step out of my comfort zone and start writing. Not to become popular. And not to go along with what everyone else is doing. I'm writing so I can be my authentic self and maybe reach a few people along the way. So even if this blog fails miserably that's OK. Maybe you were able to get something out of this. Or, maybe you think I am being a whiny asshole.

In the end of all this, I can say I finally tried something without the fear of failure or the fear of being judged. And that is the best feeling of all 

Alright, enough with the sappy shit now. I promise my next blog post will be book related. I have some fun things coming up. 

Stay Tuned!